I don’t know how you would feel if you were in my position. it like being stuck in mud and can’t move your feet. feeling static and helpless. Should i say? Dark clouds suddenly covers the bright sun and makes the atmosphere chilly and dully. He had just passed on. leaving along with everything we ever had. agreeably, he left us with absolutely nothing. The moment people tell us thet we are completely finished.
I miss him. he was the only guy i ever loved with the whole of me. that one person that gave me a reason to wake up every morning, to go to school, to attend music classes yet i wasn’t good at it at all. what i wanted was to give him the best of me. the best girl. If you are dating, am sure you will understand me. there is always that feeling of being there for somebody who is always there for you. the best thing that has ever happened.
then this fateful morning, i woke up excited as usual. as a routine call, i rushed to the barn. i was so sure i would find him there feeding fixing this or that. but he was nowhere. i rushed back to the house into his room. he was there lying. in a deep sleep like he was never going to wake up at all. i shook him, screamed his name but he was deaf to all my cries. i was exhausted. i wanted him back so badly.i couldn’t live without him. i dropped on his chest and dug my fingers into his skin hoping he would hear my sobs and get up. and tell me its fine. i think i fall asleep…..
